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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 11:18

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

But ive been too sick for many years..

One cannot live in the past .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

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Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

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Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

So, i spoilt her more .

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We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

How do I confess to my crush who had a traumatic past with his previous partner without losing the friendship?

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

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Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

There is any scientific evidence that we live in a sphere. Why do others say that we lives in a flat Earth but there is no evidence that they have proven the existence of a flat earth?

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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My family never makes their pension either.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Especially a lifetime of it.

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I couldn’t, believe it.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

He knew the spot.

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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She married twice! .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

And i lived it daily.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But, we were locked up after school.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

So whats the point in blame.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But it wasn’t much.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I was very sick at this time too.

This is soul school!.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Im still living with it.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was seconnd youngest,

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

As i do to all so called friends.?

She was in good health!

I write beautiful poetry .

When she asked me how she looked .

I have no regrets .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I never cut or harmed myself..

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I was 9 years of age.

Ive learnt so much.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My life is so biszare .

She wouldn,t have been !

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I think the readers, may guess!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Why did i forgive my father ?

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I will be 64.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

He resisted the act ,that day.

She found it foreign!.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Comes on , in middle age.

Put me off passion for life!!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Who then, do I blame.?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She loved him until the end.

We were not on the streets..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

(And it was in our own minds.)

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

It was going to be , some day.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Would this be the day?

We all went to grammer schools

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I could never make a relationship work though!

I said to her

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I waited trembling.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

All the time i was locked up.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I don,t even have a pension.

What did i know ?

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I was scared of men, in general